time moves fast....its amazing that someone still can find this back! A lot things happened after this post and after some drinks I dare to say .....
- I met so many fantastic girls via this platform. So, its quite possible that this works for finding a partner to start a relation.....hope ends up in a marrige....
- Something really bad happend to my business after this post. Gernerally speaking, i lost all my savings from pasy years and almost sold my house.
- I met a really nice girl who was willing to acompany me to go through all difficulties...I still think that she is so nice as every one knows her thinks the same. She fits all conditions u ask from a WIFE.....but it didn't work out because I don't get the feeling that I love her.
- Another one...... a really nice and beautiful lady! she lend me 50,000Euro by only seeing each other for two or three times while she noticed I was in a kind of difficult in cash flow.....we are now good friends and.....at least we can be good friends for the rest of our lifes...
- and...I believe I hurt some hearts although i hadn't intented to....sincere appology and best wishes for them!
and... for myself.... i feel a kind of scaring for current mind set.... being single and alone for such a long time. i noticed thai i start enjoying the life being alone.... get used to consider all problems from the point of only my side....arrange all time schedule for only myself....in most of times to go on holiday alone, cook alone, eat alone, training alone, being happy alone, being stressed alone, being sad alone......... thanks to all my families and friends, we still share alot of time being together!
But, I still believe in love! Belive in a wonderful marrige! A lot of my friends think that I m just naive. I don care, because I have my own believes for my life and I really fight for it! |